heckheckheckheckheckheckheck... what is wrong with me... why are these things occupying my mind... why am i caught up with work... i wanna have time to think about other things.. and do other things... i dun wanna shut them out... and leave myself stoning at well... nothing..? i want my weekends so bad... i wanna listen to my music... i wanna sing my heart out without being condemned... i wanna prove myself... i wanna appreciate... stuff... every action, every word i'm regretting about... how is this happening to me.. either way its not right... always... everything is a "how?" everything seems wrong in the end... everything seems regrettable... please pass quickly... leave me alone... ur destroying my hopes... ur destroying the mood... ur hurting the feelings... i. hate. you. school.

stan,
sometimes.. you feel there is no fun... thats why you turn and run...
and i don't wanna live a lie... too many sleepless nights...~*